About Updating

[deadlyscarlet]

Hi,
        Well to all my readers, I need to confess something. I know you all want me to update my stories and I feel bad that I am going to disappoint you. I am going to update very slow from now on. I think people who have read Lascivious Blood would know that I am a Computer Engineering student. And I am the student of a world famous college. Studying there isn't simple, you need to study a lot. When I joined that college, I contracted a very severe depression. I cried every single day and I refused to study. I kept failing all my papers. When I completed my course, I had 45 papers to clear. Can you imagine the number? Passing subjects in my college isn't a very easy feat. You need to study 24/7, you will have to study two to three books and that too the size of a pillow. And most of the faculty are psychopaths who enjoy failing students. None of them were merciful to me either. In every semester out of the eight semesters, I managed to pass only two or maybe nothing out of the 10 subjects for the semester. So you can imagine what sort of a pathetic, disgraceful student I was. Every faculty hated me.

        But last year, during the October-December examination, I studied like a maniac. I slept for just two or three hours per day. For those three months I studied so hard. I just prayed that I could clear something, coz like I said it is impossible to pass in my college. But then my efforts paid and I passed 20 papers in a single attempt. Everyone who knew me were shocked. Even my faculty were dumbfounded. Twenty really wasn't an easy feat,more like a miracle, but I still managed it. But still I had 25 left to clear. So I had to take the May examination. But then due to various problems in my college, like revaluation results and two students committing suicide, the examination which was supposed to have a period of three months was made to fit in a month. I had to write one or two papers every single day. Like I mentioned, studying for my college exam really isn't an easy feat. I was exhausted again due to the lack of sleep. I was dying and my sleep has been destroyed. Even now, I wake up everyday at 1.00 am or 3.00 am. Internally, I knew I wouldn't clear anything.

        Today my results came and I cleared 9. Nine isn't a small number either, but still it isn't enough as I have 16 more. Everyone are congratulating me but I am not happy. Deep down, I know that if I had studied properly i would have cleared more. But no use crying over spilled milk. 

         Anyway, the thing is I am going to work hard from now on. Of course I am not going to give up on my writing as I love it and my readers are important to me. But then my future is important to me too. Fanfiction is not going to help me survive. It is a pleasure and it causes pleasure to my readers too but still that pleasure is not going to take care of me. So I just wanted to tell that my updates may become slow. But, hey if I study hard now then this Engineering bitch will be off my hands and I can write more right? So please forgive me if I am disappointing you but still I hope you will understand.

        And ofc my collab fics will be updated too. For now I have three collab fics. One is Dearest which I am writing with xadowangel and two chapters of it have already been updated. The other one is Cast Two Shadows which I am writing with veroxion . She has already updated about it in her archive but for now we haven't updated any details about it. The last one is with venomousliberty and again for this the details as well as the name is a secret. I will be writing this with the three of them everyday though. So the updates for this three alone will be fast but my own fics will be slow. I am sorry but like I said my future is important.

        Thank you for putting up with me,

----Scarlet