honey, you have no idea how similar my life is to yours.
My parents are both really considerate. They try to listen to me. But once i let my problems ouy, theu vent it off on each other. They keep blaming one another which turns into a nasty fight. I always thought that i'm the reason they're so unhappy. But later found out that they hate each other with a passion and always look for ways to denounce one another. I think the only reason they didn't get seperated is for the 'till death do us apart' thing, and i actually laughed my ass out when i read your scene. And then i cried.
Sometimes i feel like i'm just a mistake. I'm born in the wrong place, wrong time, wrong family and sometimes it's just so suffocating. I'm grateful that i'm allowed to go out though.
I wanna do so much you know??? It's just...i can't. And it hurts so bad. I don't have anyone to hold my hand.
I wanna become a teacher at my favorite uni. I wanna fall in love with a sweet guy. I wanna go to a gaze concert. I wanna write aoiha. I wanna drive along an empty highway at the middle of the night. I wanna buy every vk cd and dvds. I wanna get my favorite books stacked up on my shelves. I wanna have my waist back to 26. I wanna smile all the times.
And sweetheart, you need to live. If you want those dreams to come true, you need to live. You need to forget everything that happens today. Because a powercut doesn't last forever right? There's a lightswitch somewhere, when the power is back just press it.
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Date: 2012-06-28 04:24 am (UTC)My parents are both really considerate. They try to listen to me. But once i let my problems ouy, theu vent it off on each other. They keep blaming one another which turns into a nasty fight. I always thought that i'm the reason they're so unhappy. But later found out that they hate each other with a passion and always look for ways to denounce one another. I think the only reason they didn't get seperated is for the 'till death do us apart' thing, and i actually laughed my ass out when i read your scene. And then i cried.
Sometimes i feel like i'm just a mistake. I'm born in the wrong place, wrong time, wrong family and sometimes it's just so suffocating. I'm grateful that i'm allowed to go out though.
I wanna do so much you know??? It's just...i can't. And it hurts so bad. I don't have anyone to hold my hand.
I wanna become a teacher at my favorite uni. I wanna fall in love with a sweet guy. I wanna go to a gaze concert. I wanna write aoiha. I wanna drive along an empty highway at the middle of the night. I wanna buy every vk cd and dvds. I wanna get my favorite books stacked up on my shelves. I wanna have my waist back to 26. I wanna smile all the times.
And sweetheart, you need to live. If you want those dreams to come true, you need to live. You need to forget everything that happens today. Because a powercut doesn't last forever right? There's a lightswitch somewhere, when the power is back just press it.
Love you!!!!